Saturday, August 01, 2015

An Absence

I'm sure if you keep your eyes peeled on any of my social media platforms you would have seen the huge gap in posting, pictures and videos.

At first I decided to take a little time to myself. I wanted to sort through some personal issues and take a little bit of time to refocus and reflect on the past months and also the upcoming ones. I think everyone should do this every once in awhile, especially if things are building up and you just need a breather. I have the privilege of only blogging and making videos for my hobby (a hobby which I love) which although not very good for 'numbers' etc allows me to actually sit back and re-evaluate what I need to without too much consequence.

Some of you lovely people realised I had been missing and sent me really thoughtful messages to make sure I was okay, ask if I was coming back or needed any help/support and I cannot thank you enough for that. In short, I am absolutely fine. A few situations arose that made me quite upset and depressed and I felt that I just needed to focus on and deal with the emotions within myself before being able to concentrate on doing the extra things I enjoy. Life is a whirlwind and in all sense of the word, constantly changing and moving around. Change is not something I am very good with, many people can go through change and adapt - Life Chameleons I like to call them. I am more of a Life Snail - any sense of change and I want to curl up into my shell and wait for it all to blow over. The majority of the time I get away with doing this but becoming older and having more responsibilities (as you do) I find I really do have to pull myself out of my shell, buck up and deal with it. I was feeling very de-motivated about everything which if any of you have suffered with depression you'd know how hard it is to get out of those moods. I felt as if I wasn't actually good enough to be blogging or making videos which is absolutely silly as I should always be able to feel like I can utilise what I enjoy doing.

To you reading this, this may sound very vague but I am sure in one scenario or another you have felt like this and without explaining everything that has happened and is happening which would take years - I am sure you all understand where I am coming from.

After dealing with these situations I moved into my new apartment. This process took up a lot of my time. I was going to work, looking for viable properties all night, eating, going to bed, waking up and repeating until we (my other half and I) were successful in finding our new home. After this it was the paperwork, the move, setting up bills, buying furniture, unpacking (which we are still doing) and obviously still going to work so I really haven't had much time to dedicate to anything other than my home and work bar a few Instagram posts here and there. Most of my beauty products are still packed and I am currently living on a small bag of makeup goodies I packed and my skincare, other than that not much has graced my face.

I was just going to start posting again as normal starting with a review but I really wanted to share the changes that I had been going through and properly explain where I had been hiding (under my snail shell). As for my blog, I don't just want it to be about beauty! I want lifestyle pieces and little parts of me and my thoughts because I am obviously deeper than just the products I review and it is something I feel like sharing.

I have a lot planned in the next upcoming months and many more changes to undergo in my life but hopefully you can all bare with me and join in on the journey! Of course there is still going to be beauty and reviews but I also want to start incorporating a lot more choices and subject matter.

The point of this post was just to say a big thank you for the patience and support. I am glad I have the chance to take a step back and breath, it is something I feel a lot of people take for granted just as I sometimes do. For now I am just taking it one day at a time and enjoying the little things that I forget to absorb when life is rushing around me.

With that being said I hope everyone is doing well and I look forward to what's to come!


  1. It's amazing to see you post again. I've been worried about you, but didn't want to pry incase something had happened but thought you'd message me if you needed me, or wanted to talk. I really hope you OK.. I've missed you so much. You know where I am if you ever want to chat, rant or anything. Lots of love xxxx

    1. Thank you for always cheering me up Gemma ♡ I know I've been out of touch for a while but you are right, a few things had and have happened that made it quite hard for me to face just everyday life net a loan focusing my energy elsewhere. I'm okay and will continue to get by :) I am feeling a lot better than I was! I've missed you so so much too but have not skipped a post you have written since taking my absence! Thank you for your shoulder Gem, the same offer applies to you ♡ All my love back xxxx